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I hurt today.
My shoulder hurts from the cortisone shot. My poor shoulder has taken a beating between the MRI Monday and the doctor yesterday. I have more movement which is a HUGE improvement. I have tendonitis, a bone spur and a POSSIBLE tiny tear, but there’s no way to tell unless the doc goes in to scope my shoulder. He wants to leave that as a last option. He would rather rule out a neck injury before surgery. I don’t blame him. That’s invasive shit. So I lost a handful of sporks there with the shit. It hurt like a mother fucker-I cried. I don’t think talking to Florida helped, either.
As for Florida, I’ve let go. Only I still feel him with me, as if he can’t let ME go. Even now as I sit on the patio enjoying the beautiful weather he’s here. Protecting me. From what, I have no idea. I keep asking him to let me go, and then he tightens the grip he has on me. It hurts. Emotionally and physically-like a vise gripping my wrist. I hear him pleading, “Please, please, please!” Repeatedly. I keep repeating “Let me go. Please, let me go. I can’t, I can’t!”
The grip tightens and he tries to pull me closer as I pull away.
I don’t understand. How can I have this profound connection with this one person??
It hurts. All of it hurts. My shoulder, my back, my heart, my soul…just make it stop.
Please, just make it stop.
morgueticiaatoms said:
Sending you giant sporkfuls of non addictive painkiller for whatever ails your booboos, physically or spiritually.
(No prescription needed, no side effects, but Pegacorn pixie dust sold separately.)
sassafrassthefeisty said:
Thank you. I did get the organic non-gmo, fair trade certified chocolate that is rolled on the legs of lesbians that Blah recommended. I’m probably gonna need my pegacorn pixie dust fix soon. I’m getting the shakes…wait-that could be the tears ripping through my body..fuckall..here’s $50, a pack of cigs AND 6 Mangoritas. Pixie dust me up-wait, pegacornxie me up
dianetharp70 said:
HUGS! Chumley says feel better too!! 😦
sassafrassthefeisty said:
Thanks you two. Scratches for Chumley. ❤